If I could I would. I am so broke, I cry. I would like to fly. Get away. Run and hide. Over the mountains and thought he woods, across the rivers and canyons, around the puddles of mud and though the rain drops. Some where over or around the rainbow it would set me free, I would not hear a scream or shout I would not hear the nagging I would not see the people who hurt me I would not need to deal with it. I would be so free of every care in the world. I would love to just cut you lose and be myself. If every sad song brought me a tear, I would have a few cups willed with my eye fluids. I look at the calendar it tells me how much time is gone by, and how long I’ve been begging to leave, I am slowly dieing inside, but nobody can love me like I love myself. Some times being lonely is the best cure for all this pain and Misery. I cant take the loud noises from your mouth, from the radio from my mind, every bad thing is on a wheel being recorded and it repeats in my mind. I just cant deal with it. People have asked me to move out with them. But you’ve put the fear of trust and shame about my self in my mind. If I could cut my self lose and free my mind and free my soul from this living hell, I would not have every spoken another word to you I would not have give in you the opportunity to abuse and use me, treat me with such disrespect. It makes me so sick looking back, knowing that your begging me to stay. The empathy you show isn’t enough for now or forever to come. Your pity your money and your life doesn’t mean a thing. I am getting my own breath and breathing for what feels like the first time, is all I need now is to wait for the winds to carry me away. I am ready to spread my new wings and fly. Let new growth and new memories fulfill my life and cherish every thing that I would ever have in my life.
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